Lyrics

Cold room
Blue forms
Ink stains
On my shaking hand
She stares
Right through
Says
“It’s my choice
You’ll never understand”

Tiny name
On my tongue
Dies there
Before it’s spoken
Doctor’s words
Sound like steel
Every syllable
Another bone broken

I’m a father with no say
Watching you erase our days
You hold the power
I hold the blame
I lose my child
You keep your name
Tearing at the law
But it won’t hear me
Begging the sky till my throat bleeds
Silent father
Screaming sky
My baby lives or dies
And I’m just standing by

Clock ticks
Like a gun
Each click
Closer to the end
I see
Little shoes
Empty crib
That I can’t defend

You say
It’s your life
Like I’m
Just a ghost in your bed
But there’s
Two hearts
One breaks
And one is never read

I’m a father with no say
Watching you erase our days
You hold the power
I hold the blame
I lose my child
You keep your name
Tearing at the law
But it won’t hear me
Begging the sky till my throat bleeds
Silent father
Screaming sky
My baby lives or dies
And I’m just standing by

Where’s my right to hold that hand? (hey!)
Where’s my say in this broken plan?
Courtroom’s deaf
Paper gods
Write me out
With a single nod

If there’s mercy
Let it split this stone
If there’s justice
Don’t leave me alone
I’m the father
You don’t see
You killed the choice
Inside of me

I’m a father with no say
Watching you erase our days
You hold the power
I hold the blame
I lose my child
You keep your name
Tearing at the law
But it won’t hear me
Begging the sky till my throat bleeds
Silent father
Screaming sky
My baby lives or dies
And I’m just standing by

Cold room
Door shuts
One heartbeat
Cut
I walk out
Still the same
But I’ve lost
My only name