Lyrics

Kneeling where the candles burn
I hear an evil voice
Every vow I torn down
Haunts my horrible choice

The collar hides a starving mouth
The chapel knows my name
I count the doors, I count the doubts
I feed the hidden flame
No child, no sister, no one near
Will bear the weight I bring
I lock the hunger in my fear
And slap the hand of the king

I speak the words, I strike my chest
I beg the walls to make me clean
But every prayer becomes a test
And something vile dulled my sheen

Get out of me
You parasite in holy skin
Get out of me
Before the rot becomes a sin
I name the darkness, drag it out
I face the wound, I face the doubt
But every road I take to flee
Leads back to what is left of me

CONFESS! REPENT! THE PIT REMEMBERS!

They moved me north, they moved me south
New parish, same disease
A different lock, a different mouth
A callous set of knees
I keep the vulnerable far away
I tear the keys from trembling hands
Yet rumors bloom where sick men pray
And judgment follows every stand

I write the names I cannot say
Then burn the paper, ash by ash
The devil wears a borrowed face
And I have worn it in the past

Get out of me
You parasite in holy skin
Get out of me
Before the rot becomes a sin
I name the darkness, drag it out
I face the wound, I face the doubt
But every road I take to flee
Leads back to what is left of me

No absolution for the harm
No secret room, no silent psalm
The innocent are not my cure
Their safety is the only calm
I leave the keys beneath the stone
I tell the truth into the phone
I walk away from every throne
And let the ruined man be known

NO MORE HIDING!
NO MORE ALTARS!
NO MORE VICTIMS!
DEPART OH SATAN!

Am I not possessed
I am responsible
Am I not a beast
I choose what I become
Confession is not cleansing
If the danger still remains
Prayer is not a shield
Against the evil driving me insane
Get out of me
You parasite in holy skin
Get out of me
You will not turn my fear to sin
I name the darkness, drag it out
I face the wound, I face the doubt
No sacred title shelters me
I break the chain and let them be

The chapel doors are open wide
The bells refuse my name
I leave the cloth, I leave the lie
And carry all the blame